Or "Lolácska", as I call him behind his back. He get to Szekszárd on Monday, and I wrote that we could talk, but I didn't write what I felt. I just looked at him, and I couldn't get enough of his beautiful eyes... those black eyes... I love my boyfriend as well, but hey, Lolácska and I could get together in the past (last Autumn), if we had more courage. I wrote these lines in English, because I don't want everybody to know this feeling... but some people will understand it, and I belive I can trust in them. For example, Zí or Fred. I know that my English is not the best, but... I don't care. So Monday: maybe I would hold Lola's hands, maybe I would him to kiss me, but my brain (and silently my heart) said "NO". So I just smiled and talked stupid things. Maybe he thought these things too, because a few months ago he wanted me as a "second girlfriend", and once he said that he (irigyli, nem tudom mi angolul :) Gábor. I love him and I won't cheat him, but sometimes it's a bit hard. But I know things will be all right. :)